There’s a cat on me.
I think it knows I’m lonely.
I gave myself a black eye
By falling on my face.
I’m laughing.
I’m not dead , just clumsy.
It’s sunny out
James Brown is playing
Last year I got too high
From that dumb volcano.
On New Year’s Eve,
I fell asleep.
A friend of a friend snorted a line
And drove me home.
Drugs are dumb
Booze destroys my spirit.
People are cowards,
They’re afraid to feel.
I might go for a walk
The sun is shining
Part of me wishes the ice at Glenmore
Would break underneath my feet
And take me for a frozen swim.
It’ll cleanse my body
It’ll be like a reset.
The more I write, the more I process
The more I feel free.
I’m going to get off my ass
And make peace with life.
It HAS been a beautiful year.
There is beauty in adversity.
There is beauty in this pain.
You have to find it, I tell myself
And you ought to laugh more.
And you ought to stop dwelling
On the stupid shit from yesterday
Because it’ll ruin the moment
And this moment is quite perfect:
I have a cat on me
It’s hugging me unconditionally
We are listening to Susto.
And there is no music as raw as Susto’s.
There is sun outside
I’m waking up from this nap.
Goodbye 2017,
You shook me hard
But I’m not dead yet .
